Sunday, April 29, 2007

I am exhausted...

I am sooo tired. I can barely keep my eyes open. I NEED my pillow. My eyes are burning! I want to just drop into the sack and fall into a deep, restful slumber. I want to waked rested, refreshed and roaring to go!
Sleep well, wherever your bed is!


Friday, April 20, 2007

The importance of family...

I love my family. Where would I be without them? What would I do? Who would I turn to?

We can't pick our families. We get who we get. I got very lucky. I am thankful for my parents every day - for everything they do, everything they have done and everything they have given me. No family is perfect; every one has issues, but if there is love, that's what counts.

I've come to realize that it's very important to know that our parents will love us no matter what happens. This is called unconditional love, I think. Without this love, it makes personal relationships more difficult to maintain. We put too much emphasis on finding acceptance in others that we failed to find from our parents. If we know we are lovable at all times, we don't hold onto love too tightly, because we trust that the person we love will stick around, or we know we will be OK on our own.

I am lucky to have a top-of-the-line, best-they-come family. I love them so much.

I also have a fantastic, sweet-as-honey boyfriend. I picked him and I know I made a good choice. I'm glad he picked me too.

Sometimes I feel unlucky. My life is a bit more challenging than the average person. I cannot walk and I depend on people just to get out of bed in the morning. I feel like I have no privacy, that I am not really sitting in the driver's seat navigating my life, and that I got ripped off in the game of good fortune. I want to say, "Forget this whole future stuff. Life's too hard right now........I want to bail out."

Then I think of everyone I love. I remember my Dad and how he makes bad days better. He brings calmness wherever he goes. I think of my Mom and the way being around her feels like I am home anytime, anywhere. She knows me the best in the world. I am reminded of my siblings and how I share the longest history with them. They are simply amazing people. My mind wanders to the Observer and I remember all the laughter and love that is between us. Just looking at him causes me to smile.

Things may suck sometimes, but at least I am not alone. It's the relationships we build with people that matter in life.


Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I am grateful for........

* my family
* having love in my life
* my bed at home in my childhood room
* independence
* the TV in my bedroom
* Splenda
* that Maddie is still here
* sushi
* watching reality TV with the Observer or my family
* songs that make me think
* kind attendants
* memories
* that broken hearts heal.
* my bald, sweet boyfriend
* that I have a future to look towards


Saturday, April 14, 2007

Saturday's words

strong coffee
watching taped Oprah episodes
stomach cramps
orange, sweet syrup
birthday message to April
lunch with Observer
spring time
stir fry with HOT sauce
runny nose
celebrity gossip
granola bar
sweet and salty
more coffee
a "discussion"
what's next?

Friday, April 13, 2007

Random lyrics...

I want to know,
Have you ever seen the rain?

Isn't it a pity?
Isn't a shame?
how we break each other's hearts,

and cause each other pain.

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me

When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside youre twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
cause I see you

Come mothers and fathers all over this land
And dont criticize what you cant understand
Your sons and your daughter are beyond your command
Your old role is rapidly aging
Please get out of the new one if you cant lend a hand
For the times they are a changing

The line, it is drawn, the curse, it is cast
The slow one will later be fast
And the present now will soon be the past
The order is rapidly fading
The first one now will later be last
For the times, they are a changing

So be careful with your heart and what you love
Make sure that it was sent from above
Its what you do and not what you say
If youre not part of the future then get out of the way

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Rain, drugstore, and nature's knock at my door...

It's going to rain today. I can feel it. There is a dark, gloomy feeling outside. I just went to the drugstore to pick up shampoo. It's not really something I can do without. I suppose most people can relate. I met some kind drugstore ladies. They were very helpful. I think they thought I was a bit strange. As I was searching for the right shampoo, nature decided to knock at my door - the kind of knock that says, "I'm here and if you keep me waiting too long, I'm going to barge in myself." When I "heard" the knock, I panicked. I sat still in the aisle. I was not far from home, but I still wasn't home. A drugstore employee asked if I needed anything. I told her about the shampoo and she quickly helped me get it.

I made it home to my porcelain thrown without incident. Phew! I missed the rain too.

There are a lot of pretty flowers around now. So bright, cheery, and sweet. Just looking at flowers makes me happy. I like giving them to special people.

I hope the sun comes out tomorrow. Wherever you are, I hope there is sun around you and happiness in your life.


Sunday, April 01, 2007

(You Want To) Make A Memory...

Hello again,
it's you and me
Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin' wine, killing time
Trying to solve life's mysteries

How's your life, it's been awhile?
God it's good to see you smile
I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave

(Chorus) If you don't know if you should stay
If you don't say what's on your mind
Baby just breathe
there's nowhere else tonight we should be
You wanna make a memory?

I dug up this old photograph,
look at all that hair we had.
It's bittersweet to hear you laugh
your phone is ringing
I don't wanna ask
If you go now, I'll understand.
If you stay,
Hey I've got a plan.

We're gonna make a memory.
You wanna steal a piece of time?
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines
You wanna make a memory?

(Chorus) You wanna make a memory?
You wanna steal a piece of time?
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines

(Bon Jovi)

Silly words...

Don't know where I'm going,
Don't know where I've been,
Don't know what to say,
Don't know what to do,
just that I will never have to worry about an untied shoe.