Friday, December 31, 2010

Last day of 2010...

A new beginning is about to begin - 2011. It's New Year's Eve and there's mild rain. Outside is quite warm considering it's winter. I spent today on the phone and computer. Needing air, I headed to the Bagel Store for a multi-grain bagel with butter. It was satisfying. They were just about to close but kindly offered to take my order. I got lucky. Next I browsed Winners. I have yet to buy any clothes. Finding the right size is tricky. Winners is a warehouse.

I don't feel like reflecting on the past year. I've spent the whole year looking back. Forward is more important. Cole and Skylar's births were huge blessings. They have changed me forever. They have filled my heart with joy. Oh babies, I love you!

Getting back together with the Observer was such a gift. I can't thank him enough for his unconditional love. You are my best friend in the world. Wherever you go, I will go too. Be happy always Observer. I love you more than coffee.

The trip to PEI that Dad I took in August was amazing. Lots of visiting, driving, using my aunt Cindi's GPS, and music filled our days. Flying was a bit scary, but I loved being so close to the clouds. Getting to spend three whole days with dad was a bonus too.

Looking ahead, I'm excited for my brother Jeff''s wedding. I love my sister-in-law to be! I can't wait for the babies to talk, walk, smile and turn one! I can't wait for more relaxing evenings with Observer.

I'm just about to throw together the salad to bring to the Observer's party. I'm excited to see friends and laugh. They say we often end the year the same way it begain. If that's true, good friends, good food and fun times are a sweet deal.

I don't often make new Year's resolutions, but this year, my goal is to be happy!!!!!!

On that note, HAPPY 2011!!!!!!!!!!!


Thursday, December 30, 2010

When we're old...

As Thursdays go, this one shaped up well. I went to my weekly appointment which was fine. The taxi driver came right up to the office which was surprising. Normally drivers wait outside. He must have had to use the washroom badly. His first question was "Where is it?" On the taxi, I met two sweet elderly gentleman. One's wife had Alzheimer's and resided in a nursing home. He told me they married in 1955. Another just returned from having lunch with his granddaughter.

Meeting the grandfathers today reminded me of two days after Christmas when everyone - including the Observer - came to the farm to celebrate my uncle Neil's marriage to Linda. I was so happy that the Observer came. His parents drove him in their big red van. Grandpa sat in wheelchair with his eyes closed or slept in his chair. I know he would be happy to know we were together. I wished he could have lunch with me like the man on the taxi.

I went to visit the Observer at his apartment. Since he works until 8 pm most Thursdays, this was a rare treat. We had dinner and enjoyed being together. When we're old, it will be the same story.


Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Shopping and not reading...

My goal is to read everyday. It's ten minutes to my bed-time so that's just not happening. Maybe tomorrow or the next day. My day wasn't productive. I had a kind morning attendant. Her name is Sue. I rarely see her, so catching up was a sweet surprise. She's the kind of lady who would be as kind to you in the next hour as she would if a year past since you last saw her. Hopefully I'm like that too.

I did go to the grocery store for lettuce, apples, dried cranberries, mushrooms, carrots and sweet potatoes. The Observer is hosting a New Years party and I offered to bring a festive salad. I hope it's yummy. I'm excited for the party. Two friends are coming. Christina is my best bud and John is a good friend of the Observer's. A fun night is approaching.

Tomorrow I have an appointment and than I'm visiting the Observer at his apartment. It will be busy, but hopefully I'll get some reading time in there. Here is Cole on Christmas Day at my parents house. He ALWAYS makes me smile....

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Chistmas past...

Well, another Christmas has passed. My nephew and niece made our holiday. Skylar was dressed in a pretty red and white dress.(pictured) She looked so cute!

We celebrated Christmas Eve at Carlie and Mike's house. The observer came which made my night. We had pizza, spring rolls, crackers and cheese, sweet bread cookies and pie. Such a yummy way to start Christmas!

Christmas morning was low key. We had our usual egg casserole, muffins and raisin bread. Carlie and mike brought Skylar early. Once everyone arrived, we watched the babies open gifts. (Well, Cole!) He was excited. Skylar was chilling.

I left at three for the Observer's family. I was sad to say goodbye to the babies, but felt doubly blessed that I had two loving families to spend Christmas with.


Friday, December 24, 2010


Well, it's Christmas Eve! I can't believe 20zen is almost over. I'm excited for Christmas tomorrow. I'm going to my sister's house to hang out with Skylar (the most important person!), my sister and her husband, the Observer, my brother Jeff and my parents. The evening should be low-key.

Tomorrow I'm going to have Christmas morning with my parents and maybe a sibling or two before going to celebrate with the Observe and his family. Hopefully I'll get to see Cole before I leave. I haven't seen him since we made our annual weekend trip to Collingwood. This year it's all about the babies!

Yesterday I went to Whole Foods and bought a gift card for my parents in Yorkville. It's quite the swanky area. I met the Observer at Swiss Chalet and had stir fry. We went to Tim Hortons and a sweet European man bought us coffee and treats. So sweet, wasn't it? His kind spirit put me in the mood for the holidays.

The Observer and I will see each other lots during the next few days. I'm so happy! We're going to my grandparents' for a post wedding celebration for my uncle (Neil). He's not my favourite but I do love the rest of the family.

So much has improved since last Christmas. I'm bigger than I have ever been, but it's is more relaxed and gentle now.

Happy holidays!!!


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Dear Ian,

You're 28 years old today! How's life up in the clouds? I think of you frequently. Maybe you can see us down here. Can you tell when you're missed? I hope so.

Well, life is shaping up well. I haven't heard from your family, but I know your hockey league had a fundraiser in the spring. Your Dad was there.

I can't think of much that happened globally this year. The Toronto Maple Leafs are still horrible. There's been lots in my life. After choosing to be healthier, I am getting my feet back on the ground. I thought of you a lot while coming out of the fog. I used to be hurt that you couldn't talk to me about being sad. Now I get it. Sometimes it's hard to be some one else's other half when half of yourself feels lost.

Remember my boyfriend Luigi? (the guy you met at the Bloorview drop-in?) After five years together, we broke up. I remembered the distance your sadness created for us and didn't want that to happen for Lou and I. After eight months, we reunited. He's the love of my life....

I am so lucky to be healthy. Sometimes life sucks, but I am know it will pass. I'm sorry life shortchanged you, but I'm glad I knew you.

Miss you Leaf freak. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Thursday, December 02, 2010

Away we go (the movie) quotes.....

It's all those good things you have in you. The love, the wisdom, the generosity, the selflessness, the patience. The patience! At 3 A.M. when everyone's awake because Ibrahim is sick and he can't find the bathroom and he's just puked all over Katki's bed. When you blink, when you blink! And it's 5:30 and it's time to get up again and you know you're going to be tired all day, all week, all your fucking life. And you're thinking what happened to Greece? What happened to swimming naked off the coast of Greece? And you have to be willing to make the family out of whatever you have.

Burt Farlander: Do you promise to let our daughter be fat or skinny or any weight at all? Because we want her to be happy, no matter what. Being obsessed with weight is just too cliché for our daughter.
Verona De Tessant: Yes, I do. Do you promise, when she talks, you'll listen? Like, really listen, especially when she's scared? And that her fights will be your fights?
Burt Farlander: I do. And do you promise that if I die some embarrassing and boring death that you're gonna tell our daughter that her father was killed by Russian soldiers in this intense hand-to-hand combat in an attempt to save the lives of 850 Chechnyan orphans?
Verona De Tessant: I do. Chechnyan orphans. I do. I do.