Sunday, September 22, 2013

Bed bugs...

Where do I even begin??? I have been home for the past two weeks. Bed bugs found me. Falling asleep one night, I saw one beetle like bug crawl across my pillow. I knew I had to kill that bug as proof. Let me tell YOU. That sucker didn't die easily. It took serious muscle power. The next day, he was STILL moving even while squashed inside a Kleenex. Isn't that nasty? Two days later, the exterminator found twenty in my bed. the second spraying happens in a few days. I threw out my bed, my mattress, my new love seat, my pillows and blankets. 

My brother has been in the hospital twice since I've here. His journey has drained all of us. When will his chapter end? Thankfully I won't be home long enough to find out.

I am safe and have an amazing family.  Thank you God.


Friday, September 06, 2013

Quotes from the library....

No Matter What Happens......

 I remember a time when the world was a playground and my life a song,
And I fluttered through years with barely a care,
Ignoring the future and what waited there.

School was intriguing and filled with delights.
I played away day-times and dreamed away nights.
My parents assured me I had nothing to fear,
And that no matter what happened, they’d always be there.

Little I knew of a world outside home,
Where tragedy, sorrow and murder could roam.
All I saw were blue skies, rainbows and stars.
I looked past destruction of buildings and cars.

As a child, my biggest concern was just me;
I had to be happy, I had to be free.
And if I was content, I would not shed a tear,
And no matter what happened, I still would be here.

But as I grow up, darkness starts to set in;
My bright world has turned in to concrete and tin.
I now see the violence I looked past before;
My friends start to die and my heart hits the floor.

Deadly diseases claim people I love,
There are landfills below me, pollution above.
I often think back to when life was a game.
But no matter what happens, it can’t be the same.

There are days when I just want to break down and howl,
To give up completely, to throw in the towel,
But I hold my head high and I push my way through.
I have too much to give and so much to do.

And I make a vow that, though it’ll be hard,
I’ll go on with a smile and play every card.
I’ll give all I can, help others and love.
No matter what happens, life will bloom again,
And the strength I don’t have will come from above.
So come, take my hand, and through darkness we will sail –
If we all join together, we never can fail.
We’ll remember to care, remember to feel,
And no matter what happens, our world we will heal.
Alison Mary Forbes

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

A look back at summer 2013....

Well, the summer of 2013 is nearing end. As a summer lover, I'm sad. I already feel a bit cold. Looking back on the summer, some highlights were:

  • Fireworks in my parents' backyard for the May 24 and July 1 long weekends
  • Buying a new couch and decorative pillow 
  • Getting caught up in the Gay Pride Parade and taking the Go Bus home
  • The big rainstorm on July 8
  • My brother Shane being hospitalized and going through detox
  • My brother Jeff getting his gallbladder out that same week
  • Buying an air mattress
  • Helping my friends through wedding planning drama
  • Finding Whole Foods in my area
  • Hanging out with Cole on Sundays
  • Buying a new red fan
  • Discovering a love for yellow zucchini, mushrooms and black bean salsa on salad 
  • My mom's "pudding cake"
  • Going to Queens Quay and being around water
  • Chocolate peanut butter Pop-Tarts
  • Having Des visit on weekend evenings
  • Keeping my fridge well stocked with a variety of pop
  • Hannah's first birthday party
  • Skylar's face when she saw her cousin Cole naked for the first time
  • The three guitar playing buskers that I love
  • White peaches and cherries
  • Tea tree oil for between my toes
  • The song Madness by Muse
  • Goodnight kisses
  • My family for being who they are
  • Bran muffins
  • Being healthy to enjoy the sunshine
  • Jeff and Katherine visiting
  • Visiting Christina in Oakville before she moved to Barrie
  • Long distance phone calls from Christina
  • Still having hope for the future 

I spent the night at my parents' house this past weekend. Skylar slept over. I loved watching her cuddle on the couch with my parents. In the morning, Skylar came to wake me up. We had pumpkin pancakes. Later we watched Toopy And Binoo. Skylar tried on her school uniform, so it could be mended. She looked so cute! Today was her first day. It's been rough. Change takes time....

I've been on a hunt for yellow zucchini today. My attempts to buy some at two stores this morning failed. Later, Loblaws was stocked. Yellow zucchini is pretty on a salad....I'm trying to soak up summer even by what I eat.