Monday, December 07, 2015

Monday, September 14, 2015

Goodbye coffee and summer, hello tea and fall!

Well, I have a new blog title and a new address inspired by my life changing decision to swap my morning coffee with morning tea. The strength of coffee was too much for my stomach, and tea is milder. Alas, out with old and in with the new. It was sort of like losing a piece of myself, but I guess I'm less intense, which is good.

Summer is coming to a close and I'm sad. Some highlights were:

* Going to Center Island with Liam
* Seeing the movie Inside Out
* Hiring April and Lauren as our wedding team
* Going to Liam's soccer game
* Hannah's party
* Our engagement party
* Meeting Lisa and Brian
* Trying the new streetcar
* Buying Matt an ice cream cake for his birthday
* Picnics at Queen's Quay
* Des getting sick with bipolar disorder and recovering
* Seeing Newsies the musical
* Eating pancakes from the Golden Griddle at night
* Having four cavities filled for the first time
* Watching A Normal Heart on HBO

Summer was fun. I hope fall will be too.


Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Marriage is not beautiful.....

Marriage is ugly, you see the absolute worst in someone. You see them when they’re mad, sad, being stubborn, when they’re so unlovable they make you scream. But you also get to see them when they are laughing so hard that tears run down their face, and they cant help but let out those weird gargling noises. You see them at 3am when the world is asleep except you two, and you’re eating in the middle of the kitchen floor. You get to see the side of them that no one else does, and its not always pretty. Its snorting while laughing, its the tears when it feels like its all crashing down, its the farting, its the bedhead and bad breath, its the random dances, its the anger and the joy. Marriage isn’t a beautiful thing, but it is amazing. It’s knowing that someone loves you so much, and wont leave you even though you said something nasty. It’s having someone have your back no matter what. Its fights over stupid things, like someone not doing the dishes or picking up after themselves. And its those nights you fall asleep in each others arms, feeling like there will never be enough time with them. It’s cleaning up their throw up, or just rubbing their back when they’re sick. It’s the dirtiest, hardest, most rewarding job there is. Because at the end of the day you get to crawl into bed with your best friend, the weirdest, most annoying, loving, goofy, perfect person that you know. Marriage is not beautiful, but it’s one hell of a ride.

by hash brown no filter

Saturday, July 18, 2015

If A Man....

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

You should not be the one doing all the bending.
compromise is a two way street.
there is nothing cute about baggage.
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you.
a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals.
look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.
when a man always know where you are,
and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. - From Oprah

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Words to stop mush....

I need to write something. It doesn't matter what. Just something. I've not read in a while either. What if my brain goes mushy? I wrote this at least.

Let's try something simple.

I'm grateful for:

* Emma's first birthday
* Skylar saying, "You can kiss me whenever you want!"
* New members at women's group
 * Nanimo bars from the market
* Finger puppets from the market
* Family Ties on Netflix

Still no mush...yet


Sunday, May 17, 2015

So This Happened.....

This happened on Thursday, May, 14th at 11:00 p.m. while eating fuzzy peaches in my pajamas. The ring is beautiful, but I love my future husband a little more.


Thursday, April 23, 2015

I'm grateful for...

* Skylar being out of hospital
* Skylar asking for "liquid cookies" on her liquid diet
* The opportunity to thank Nadeem for helping me with finances
* Matt's scruffy beard
* Liam choosing flowers for his Mom
* Liam smiling lying on the air bed
* My Dad........always


Monday, March 23, 2015

I'm grateful for....

* Mom turning 60 years old
* The birthday party we planned
* Mom's cake with purple icing (for Skylar) green icing (for Hannah) and blue icing (for Cole)
* Music from George Ezra
* Seeing the movie Cinderella and the quote, "Be kind and courageous."
* All the little kids who watched the movie with Matt and I in the theater
* Spring
* The show A Different World on Netflix
* Neil being so sweet
* Eating Mangoes and kiwi with Matt for breakfast
* Jeans that still fit
* Hot water


Sunday, January 04, 2015

Happy 2015!

Well, it's 2015 and another year is here.  I hope yours began well. Mine did. Christmas was fun and different. Matthew and I spent Christmas  Eve with my family and December 25th with Matthew's family. We went to Hamilton and ate Chinese food. I don't normally eat Chinese but sometimes the company trumps the menu. They were super kind. My own family had their Christmas ruined by my brother's drinking. I am so, so sad.

I'm going home until tomorrow. I have an appointment in the morning with hematology because I am anemic. To help this, I've been eating lots of beef. It's working. I have waited six months for this appointment and no one thought I would make it. Beef is functional when needed. I've not slept in my childhood bed but once in a whole year. 

My hope for 2015 is that it's peaceful. I wouldn't have thought 2014 would be meat-filled and that I would only sleep at my family's once. A lot can change in a year. I'm ready for anything. I have no expectations because one never does know what is in store.

This music brings me peace. I hope it does for you, too.

I'm out.